My brother had a heart-to-heart on Wednesday night. He is not returning to university in the fall and he wants to move out as soon as possible. I told him I was in the same situation. I also, for the first time, told my brother about my issues, the medication and psychiatrist and my brother was very concerned about me. We hugged, I shed some tears.

We talked a bit about my boyfriend. My brother told me that my boyfriend “suits me”. Coming from my brother, it meant a lot to me because he was very sincere. I love my brother sometimes.

Eventually my dad will become aware of the fact that my brother failed three classes and is dropping out, and I better not be home when that happens.

I’ve been extremely tired lately and sleeping a lot. I woke up at 2 pm today. Sometimes I feel like shit for the whole day, sometimes I feel pretty good once I’m awake. Hopefully, this lethargy will wear itself off after another week or so, once my new drug dosage is a bit more stable. The sleeping pills keep me asleep for about five hours but I still don’t have a normal sleep.

I’ve been losing weight without trying. I’m down five real pounds over the last three weeks or so. I haven’t been bingeing and I’ve been walking as much as possible. I have an almost insatiable appetite and feel like I eat so much, though. I’d be happy if I lost about five more pounds.

I made a new recipe tonight and it was the best tofu I’ve ever made! Yes, it was good for tofu, at least. Yummy. I also ate a pint of blueberries yesterday, and a second pint today. Oops.

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